Born, like other comic book characters, out of an otherwise trivial but life-changing animal bite, the Rabid Librarian seeks out strange, useless facts, raves about real and perceived injustices, and seeks to meet her greatest challenge of all--her own life.
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Sunday, June 30, 2013
I woke up with it in my head
Now I'm looking forward to a quiet evening at home. But first I'm going to scrounge for something to eat. Hope your weekend is going well.
Saturday, June 29, 2013
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Well, despite a nap, I have finished the notes
One of the tangents we went on during the game was the costuming of the upcoming show, 'Reign', which is supposed to be about Mary, Queen of Scots in the court of the French, but which seems to be mostly, as I put it, 'teen angst in fantasy mediaeval dress'. Of course, it should have been Tudor-style. Brenda is a professional costumer and long-time Society for Creative Anachronism participant, and the game master is a gay man with a history degree who also studied theatre. Nothing was architecturally correct, the clothes were just completely Renaissance Faire, and as I (also a history degree, and lots of graduate level classes, mainly dealing with Europe form ancient to French Revolution) looked up earlier, Mary didn't go to France as a teenager for the first time--she was five and grew up at the French court. In other words, there is nothing vaguely historical about this show. There was much frothing. See for yourself:
Now there were a couple of interesting trailers we saw, also from the CW network. There's the 'Tommorow People', which originally was a British show that both YKWIA and I grew up with in the 1970s and loved, that was then remade in the 1990s (it was okay, not as good as the original), and now it's made it to America, with a much darker feel and yes, teen angst. The jury's out on that one. Here's it's preview:
Another was 'The 100', which looked interesting. It's about 100 young prisoners who did not fit into an overcrowded society in a space station sent back to Earth decades after a global nuclear war as a test to see if humanity can return. Here's that preview:
A very productive day
In addition to the bounty from earlier, I watered and trimmed some of my window box herbs so I use them in my herb bread. There's sage, oregano, basil, and thyme. I'm letting the dill go to seed. My kitchen, where they're out on a paper towel to dry, smells lovely. :)
I do have a couple of questions for those of you out there:
- Do any of you know someone in our area who would be willing to take in a 12-year-old female Basset hound whose owners are no longer able to keep her? I thought I'd check for a friend, who was trying to find a home for her.
- When I was a teenager we had soft, non-canned cat food in pouches that we fed our cats. I'm looking for something like that, without gravy, etc. The closest we've come so far is Whiskas or Friskies, but they have the gravy, and the cat is somewhat indifferent to what it's tried so far. When we went to the store today we accidentally got food that was basically canned, but in a plastic container, with many of them in a box today, and the cat turned his nose up completely. He needs an intermediate food, between dry and canned, but the owner prefers no gravy. If you have any ideas, feel free to e-mail me (link on the sidebar) or comment on this post. I've only tried Kroger and Incredipet, but the Kroger was a Marketplace store which has separate aisles for cats and dogs and a very good selection, and Incredipet has quite a good one, too. I've also checked online at PetSmart, and generally online. Apparently most of the 'soft' food has gravy. :( Thanks for any input you might have!
I got a lot done in an hour
I ate breakfast at McDonald's, where a fly kept buzzing around me in the dining room. I know it's impossible to keep them out in hot weather, but it was annoying. But breakfast (egg and cheese biscuits) was good, and then I headed for the bank, where the drive-through was really hopping. I had to go inside for my transaction, and had to wait awhile because there was only one lobby teller open, but I was patient and eventually one of the drive-through tellers was able to do my transaction. I got the cashier's cheque for my rent and some money for the farmer's market, then headed there. After browsing the stalls and buying from about three of them (I like to spread the bounty), I headed to the leasing office, paid my rent (early!) and came on back to the house.
That's all I had planned for the morning. So pool or notes? Hmmmm....
Slow to wake up this morning
So glad the weekend's here
I'm getting a farmer's tan on my arms, especially where I'm driving this summer. I really must learn to put on sunscreen even when I'm not 'out' in the sun. I'm quite pink, even on the back of my neck (since I no longer have hair to cover it), and that's all from just driving about.
Tomorrow, the plan is to get up, get my rent from the bank and some money for the farmer's market, go to said farmer's market (really, this time; it will at least be less muggy and cooler), and maybe go to our pool at the complex for a little while (assuming I can get sunscreen on my back). Tomorrow afternoon there's a big grocery run with a friend and game notes to do. Sunday is the game.
I'm looking forward to the short week next week. I plan to go to our downtown Fourth of July festival as usual on Thursday, and then go to the fireworks at the Idle Hour Golf Course. I'm lucky that because I work right across the street, I can go see it from the front lawn and park with my badge in the hospital parking lot. Yay! I hopefully will be able to take Friday off as well, as it will be dreadfully slow at work that day otherwise. A four-day weekend sounds lovely. Too bad my friend A couldn't swing it; we could have gone somewhere, maybe. I also want to see the movie 'Despicable Me 2'. I loved the first one, and I'm looking forward to seeing the sequel. That's coming out next weekend. I think I still have a free admission ticket for Cinemark that was given to us as an employee gift last year (well, we had two, but I used one last year for Hunger Games. Speaking of that, in one weekend in November, Catching Fire, the 50th Anniversary 'Doctor Who' programme, and the return of 'Sherlock' all happen, although I'm not sure if that's just on the other side of the pond or here as well. :) That'll be a busy weekend if the dates are the same for here!
Okay, I think I'll go on back to sleep so I can get up early and get some things done. Have a good night!
Friday, June 28, 2013
Correction
My blood sugar is much higher than I expected. No wonder I feel bad. I've taken some insulin, and I'm heading to bed. Hope I feel better in the morning.
So at least three nights running
Let me say that I was incredibly happy to see the Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) struck down, and that marriages can resume among gay couples in California. Plus the court dismissed some cases today, which were favourable to gays. I have two dear friends who have to been together for over fifteen years. I would love to see them get married. I recognise that Kentucky will no doubt be dragging its feet to join the ranks of states that will allow this; but I have faith it will happen.
Even now I seem very groggy and just out of it. I think I'll check my blood sugar, take my long-acting insulin, and head back to bed, even though it means getting nothing done tonight. Oh, and I'll run the dishwasher, which I loaded this morning before the Terminix guy came to do the apartment. I can at least say I got something done, then. :)
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Drat!
Feeling bad because I ran off at the mouth
Another friend called me after I got home and we had a long talk, mainly about the Paula Deen dust-up, because I'd posted on Twitter and Facebook that I did not support her, and had tried to explain why, but when you're limited to 140 characters, it's a bit hard. So I explained my reasons and he understood where I was coming from and why. We found we agreed on such things as the n-word is not appropriate in any situation or said by any person, white, black, or purple. My main issue wasn't that she had said it, but rather comments about how people who didn't like her jokes had no sense of humour, and certain aspects about her apology. That word is never funny. It was never used in any way other to be hurtful and derogatory, despite comments I've read attempting to say otherwise. There were other words, yes, used instead of 'black', words that were not pejorative. Even now, for example, we have the National Association for the Advancement of Colored People, which uses a legacy term. But the n-word was always foul, and it's not something you can 'reclaim' simply by using it or a variation every other word on the bus, whatever your race.
We all say stupid and sometimes horrible things in our lives, often without thinking, often from emotion. I have a minor in Judaic Studies, am very pro-Jewish (although not exactly pro-Israel at times), have a Jewish best friend, etc., etc., and am not, in my own mind anti-Semitic. But I once said something absolutely terrible about a Jewish professor who I felt had humiliated me (and in retrospect, rightly so) in front of a classroom. I came to really like and respect the professor, and I never said anything inappropriate to his face, but my friend was there when I said it, and has never let me completely forget it, nor should I. When I think of what I said, I feel shame. Maybe, if nothing else, the Paula Deen thing will get people to think about what they say about others, but I doubt it. Instead, it seems to be about giving celebrities a free pass on things they do just because they apologise and we like them. I think that's all emotional twaddle, rather than looking at things as they really are. Most of the supporters of Deen and others in similar situations justify it because they're likable and famous, which is a shame. It shouldn't make everything okay. Yes, an apology is a first step, but it should be sincere and not done out of fear of losing lucrative contracts. And yes, there are people who do other and perhaps more egregious things (I'm thinking especially about adultery, like Tiger Woods and Bill Clinton, or doping and squashing any challenge about it, like Lance Armstrong) and largely they come out pretty clean when all is said and done, because people look the other way when their heroes (or heroines) become tainted by their own actions. That's wrong.
SO this has been a pretty serious post, but let me end it on a odd news note. YKWIA called me early this morning to tell me about a fashion show where they had coats for men and women made out of some mysterious fibre that was all the rage, and then when people asked what it was, it turned out to be men's chest hair. Really. Check out: Hair-raising fashion! Would YOU pay £2,499 for a fur coat made from male CHEST HAIR? Gross.
Monday, June 24, 2013
The humanities DO really matter
Writing well used to be a fundamental principle of the humanities, as essential as the knowledge of mathematics and statistics in the sciences. But writing well isn’t merely a utilitarian skill. It is about developing a rational grace and energy in your conversation with the world around you.
No one has found a way to put a dollar sign on this kind of literacy, and I doubt anyone ever will. But everyone who possesses it — no matter how or when it was acquired — knows that it is a rare and precious inheritance.
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Apparently I am withdrawing from caffeine
I don't normally post on Sundays, but thought I'd write a short bit. I'm home now and I've been looking for a book for a friend (one of those questions librarians get where they get very vague plot points and description, that we see as a challenge). I should go on to bed, though, as I must be up very early to take said friend to an appointment. I have to get over there by 7:15 or 7:30. At least that's what I'm shooting for. So I'm going to go on to bed. Good night!
Saturday, June 22, 2013
I guess the universe is taking care of me, after a fashion
I'm working on the notes, but it is time for a break. I'll come back in a little while and start working on them again. We played for a lot longer than normal and most of this was investigation, so it'll take quite awhile to finish.
It is apparently the afternoon of napping
I feel like a nap, too. I watered the outside plants as soon as I got home because they were looking peaked in the heat, but the sun is beating down through the windows and it's a pleasant afternoon. The plan is to get up later, do game notes and hand-wash laundry, as well as dishes and a bit of straightening, before calling it a night.
I did send the disc of 'Grimm' I have out from Netflix back today so I could get another. I checked and the first season is on Amazon Prime, which I have, without paying anything additional. So I'm going to go that route. I couldn't get Silver Linings Playbook at the library, so I added it to my disc queue to watch in a little while. I have a couple of other discs first, but they should be quick to watch, I think. A said it was fine to wait a bit. Okay, now for my nap. :)
Friday, June 21, 2013
I was going to write
Tomorrow I also might
What a day
For tomorrow, I plan on:
- Going to the farmer's market (for real this weekend)
- Doing some laundry (at my friends' house if possible, and then the hand washables at home later)
- Getting the car washed and detailed (A is treating me to this, which is great)
- Doing game notes
It is a day when things are not going according to plan
- Got to the passport office; their camera wasn't working. Then they figured out the problem (a bad power strip), but it turns out I needed one more piece of paperwork that wasn't mentioned anywhere (because of my name change, where they marked out my old name on my birth certificate and put in the new name, even though the case # and date, etc., is all on the certificate, I still need the court order). The lady was very nice and asked me if I could come back at 4, which is technically after they close, to finish the application, since tomorrow she's booked.
- My doctor's office is in a building where there are two elevators. One has been out for about two or three weeks apparently. The other went out today, and the people fixing it had all gone to lunch when I got there. So it was up four flights of stairs and an asthma attack for me.
- I waited nearly two hours to see the doctor, which took less than five minutes, and then no one, either the phlebotomist or doctor (who usually does well), could stick me and get any blood out of me today, even after three sticks and several searches for veins. I now have an order to drink lots of water and go to an outside lab for my blood draw. But they are sending in my diuretic and potassium to the pharmacy so I can get those today. I am to limit my sodium intake, which includes my favourite drink, diet soda. YKWIA will be pleased; he's been trying to get me off them for years. For the record, I am drinking ice water right now.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
:)
Okay, time for that nap!
Been doing some more computer maintenance on the laptop
Tomorrow I'm off from work, although I have two appointments lined up that will take up most of the day. The first is that I'm going to the post office to apply for a passport and get a photo taken. I'm not actually planning a trip, but at some point I'd like to travel outside of the US (remarkably, I was an Air Force brat and never did so). The Medical Library Association meeting in 2015, for example, is in Canada, which now requires a passport or passport card for entry from the United States. I never could get through to the post office nearest me, so I'm going to Lexington's main post office on Nandino, but then my office, the Bluegrass station on Landsdowne, isn't particularly near me, either. :) Then I have an appointment with my doctor about my swelling ankles. Yeah, kind of boring, I know, but it's become a problem. I can't get into any of my shoes towards the end of the day except my adjustable sandals, and even then I push the envelope on those, with the velcro barely holding together sometimes on the ankle that was broken. I need a diuretic according to the podiatric surgeon. Tomorrow I also need to go by the pharmacy to pick that up and my short-acting insulin, as I only have a pen and a half left of that, and I want to make sure I have plenty for the weekend. I think I'll also stop by the Y and see about finally working out.
Tonight's plans are laundry, dishes, and well, that's about it. Maybe I should fill the fish tank, too; it's kind of low. I want to take a brief nap, but that worked so well last night. :) Of course, I'm not super tired like I was, so maybe I can do it.
So glad!
A Christian ministry that claimed people could change their sexuality through faith, prayer and therapy is shutting down its operations, and the group's president issued an apology for causing the gay community "pain and hurt" through its past work.When I was at school, a friend of mine knew a guy at the university who was a graduate student and who was hounded by these people. They showed up at his workplace and threatened to contact his family in India. The young man wound up committing suicide. I know that ultimately it was his choice, and it was the result of a few individuals' zeal, but still, I can't imagine how he must have felt, and I've never forgotten what this group did. This news gives me some hope that the world is, indeed changing, and in some ways, for the better.
Okay, it's bad when even the KKK is part of a sting to keep you from building a death ray
Feds thwart KKK member's plot to create mobile death ray to kill "undesirables" (with links to several articles, one of which is:)
KKK member, accomplice created lethal X-ray system, FBI says
Two New York state men have been charged in a bizarre plan to develop a mobile X-ray system that would be used from afar to silently kill people that they deemed "undesirable," federal officials said.They contacted two Jewish groups to try to get interest in buying their weapon, and someone contacted the authorities, starting the investigation. Later, Crawford met with a high-ranking KKK official and two other people who were working with the FBI, where he discussed the scheme and asked for money to get it off the ground. Sounds to me like they were petitioning to get into the Evil League of Evil.
Glendon Scott Crawford, 49, and Eric J. Feight, 54, were arrested Tuesday after an undercover operation by the Albany FBI Joint Terrorism Task Force. They were charged with conspiracy to provide material support for use of a weapon of mass destruction, according to the criminal complaint.
Crawford and Feight were developing a device "intended to be mobile ... designed to turn on remotely from some distance away" that would emit "some dangerous levels of X-ray radiation," according to John Duncan, executive assistant U.S. attorney for the Northern District of New York.
Weird
Okay, so I just woke up after four hours. That is not so weird. But I went to give myself a shot of Lantus, the long-acting insulin, and it refused to work. Apparently I got a pen needle that wasn't open all the way or something, kind of like when you get a dud straw that is closed on one end. I've never had that happen before. It didn't work for the air shot or anything, and when I tried to push, wouldn't go anywhere. I had to change needles and then I was fine. Odd.
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Ready for a quiet night at home
I suppose it was because I ate so late last night, even though I took my insulin, that my blood sugar was through the roof (over 400!) this morning. By lunch it was about my norm, a little over 200 (still too high). By mid-afternoon it had dropped to 140, which was very good for me these days, but I felt absolutely awful. I think when you tend to run high, your body seems to respond to relatively normal blood sugars as if you're low. I don't have any proof of that, but it's how I feel when it happens. I had a little peanut butter and crackers, got up and walked around a bit, and felt much better.
Okay, I've come home, watered the plants, and fed the fish (I usually do that last in the morning, but scooted out of here very quickly as I got out of bed at 8 am and had to be at work by 8:30--and I wasn't late, yay.) But I'm still a bit tired from everything last night, so I'm going to take a nap. I'll try to write later, maybe check the news and see if there's anything of note.
Up late working on a computer, this time for someone else
- Do not choose a password over 12 characters even though it gives you that option, because it won't let you change it later and you'll wind up on the phone with tech support for a long while.
- The POP and SMTP server names are both mail.twc.com--the techs don't know this, because the twc.com thing is so new.
- If using Outlook, you have to put your entire e-mail address in as a username in order to receive incoming mail.
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Up kind of late...
Brandon and his wife are back safe from their post-vow renewal trip to the beach, for which I'm thankful. I spent awhile speaking to YKWIA on the phone right after I got Brandon's text. We had a long talk, which was enjoyable.
I'll probably regret going to bed late tomorrow, but I want to finish up these updates. Tomorrow I'm going to help YKWIA with the migration from Insight (our former cable company) to Time Warner (our new one) in terms of computer stuff. I'll have to do that as well, so I might as well figure out what to do. So tomorrow will be quite a bit of computer fun. :)
One last thing, as I know she sometimes reads my blog: Happy birthday to my aunt, Sharon Karnes! She and my uncle are library folks, too. Hope it's a great one!
I think I'm getting closer to the end of the installations....Good night.
Monday, June 17, 2013
The rain is coming in...
I made an appointment for next week to discuss making a will and other legal documents with my lawyer today. It's long overdue. I've done my advanced funeral planning and pay every month for that, but I don't actually have a will. Not that I have much in the way of property, mind you, but I should get my desires down on paper. The other documents are for what happens to me if I am unable to take care of myself or if the plug needs to be pulled. I have a do-it-yourself advanced directives, but this comes with the package, so it's nice to get one that I'm sure will hold up in court. Since I'm already a client, I get a little discount. :)
I'm not really feeling like watching anything, although I should be doing that, I'm so behind on things. I am starting to realise I mainly like watching TV with other people, and that's part of my problem. Perhaps I need to drag YKWIA over to my place to finish up 'Doctor Who', watch the first season of 'Grimm', etc. Oh, and there's 'Downton Abbey'. He hasn't seen any of them, although A and Brandon both really love them. I'm still working my way through the first season.
The movie we watched yesterday, The Four, which came out last year, was pretty decent. I'd compare it to a sort of Chinese X-Men: First Class kind of movie, with chi mastery and psychic ability in place of mutant powers. Not historical, not as one person put it, with the eloquency of Shakespeare, but a nice fantasy with lots of action and a decent story. I am tempted to get the DVD. It is part of a planned trilogy and is based on a book called The Four Detective Guards or The Four Constables by Wen Rui-An, which doesn't appear to be available in English at Amazon except in comic form, and then number 1 is not available. It is available in Chinese as Ni Shui Hai--Four Famous Detectives. Ah, well.
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Today I:
- Cleaned my friends' house like I normally do on Sundays.
- Planted mint we'd rooted from some from the grocery outside in their yard.
- Helped wash three dogs at Incredipet's dog-washing station.
- Watched an enjoyable movie with a friend called The Four, which was in Chinese with English subtitles.
- Came home just as it was sprinkling.
- Got onto the laptop to blog and now it's raining buckets outside and lightning. Looks like I won't have to water the herbs.
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Well, the morning was rough, but the day improved
Feeling tired and I have a headache. I'm thinking of going on to bed early rather than doing some things I need to do around the house. They'll keep till tomorrow, I think. Hope your Saturday went well.
Not surprisingly, I overslept
Okay, finished with the bagel. I'm going to go to the leasing office, farmer's market, and library, then head over to my friends' house (who have already called; that's what woke me up eventually). Have a great day.
Friday, June 14, 2013
So tired I'm actually blogging from bed
Now the happy couple are on a road trip as a getaway (the kids are with family). I took a friend to an appointment this afternoon and then we had dinner together. Then I headed on home about sunset, stopping at the liquor store for some wine for my monthly libation and the bank so I could get some cash for the farmer's market tomorrow. There was an ATM at the store, but I was NOT going to pay $3.25 to some no name ATM for taking my own money out of the bank, when I could just drive down the street and get it for free. In the bus days, of course, I'd have probably done it. On my way back to the house, I was in the right-hand lane of a double left turning lane on Man O'War when someone turning left from Richmond Road turned into MY side of the median, into the empty extreme left lane next to me. They then realised their mistake and tried to go over the median, scraping the underside of their car pretty badly. It was a stupid mistake, but I could see it happening given the lower visibility at dusk. But I'm glad they didn't wind up in my lane. At least everyone was okay, although I doubt their car will be.
My plans for tomorrow:
- Stop by the Bluegrass Farmer's Market
- Turn in some library books, pay my fines (I lost track of the time this past month a bit)
- Sign and turn in my lease
- Help a friend out with a project
- Do laundry
- Work on the game notes (although I think the game will not be on, as it's Father's Day Sunday and Brenda will probably be doing something with her family)
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Doing some general computer maintenance
Today I ran some errands with a friend after work, hitting Lowe's, Fayette Mall, Meijer, Kroger, and Subway all in the Nicholasville Road area during rush hour, but cleverly avoiding most of the traffic. I discovered that A startles very easy at the least little thing (loud noise in the next car, or a car he perceives as too close), making these horrible, panicked gasping noises that then startle me. He doesn't drive, and he's just not used to traffic, mainly riding on the bus. I showed him the new bus stop at Fayette Mall, which is in a stupid place, out on the service road in the back over by Dick's Sporting Goods. It has been at the entrance to Macy's for awhile, and before that at the main mall entrance. Apparently the move was requested by the mall and Macy's. So they've put it in a place without any shelter from the elements and heavy traffic. Heaven help you if you're in a wheelchair, or have small children with you, or the like. Mark my words, someone's going to get hurt due to this.
Tomorrow I get dressed up all fancy and go to my friends' vow renewal on their tenth wedding anniversary. I had to go to Lane Bryant today and get the last piece of my outfit, some Spanx hose. I'll try to get Brandon to take a picture of me in my finery after the event and post it here. I don't get to dress up much. I've sort of vacillated back and forth about how I feel about the event, given all the fuss, stress, and money for just a few hours of fun, but I know it's very important to them, and after all, it is their day. I definitely want to be there. Plus I get to meet their friends and family.
I forgot that typing on the laptop takes some getting used to. I use four different kinds of keyboards on a daily basis: my ergonomic keyboard on my desktop, the Swype keyboard on my phone and tablet, a regular keyboard at my work desktop, and then the laptop. There seems to be a bit of a lag on the laptop right now and I'm finding that between that and the placement of the letters being somewhat more compact that I'm backspacing almost as much as I'm typing.
I think I'll check on the computer's progress with its various tasks and then turn in for the night. Here's hoping we don't have any truly horrible storms. There's still the possibility of a derecho event, especially a bit north of us. It's possible we'll get storms tonight and tomorrow morning. It's supposed to clear up after that, which would be great for the vow renewal. Good night.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
I think I'm back
I went over to YKWIA's for awhile and we watched the very last 'Jam & Jerusalem'. I'll miss Sal, Tip, Rosie, and the others. It was a fun little show.
Now I'm home and contemplating what to do next. I need to go over my lease and sign it, but it's not vital I do that tonight. I might watch a little something or maybe read--I haven't decided. I'm hopelessly behind on shows like 'Doctor Who', 'Grimm', and 'Downton Abbey'. What I do know is that it's time to take out the contacts and get into comfy clothes. Then I think I'll check out some stuff online. I haven't touched the computer at home in something like three days--I've been blogging (what little I've been doing) from my phone while curled up in a ball in bed.
If I don't write anymore tonight, I hope your week is going well. Take care.
Listening to
Linkin Park, 'Lost in the Echo'
Okay, Ed Sheeran's album + tends to help my mood, but I've listened to it a lot since I got it and I'm kind of immune to its initial effects. Ophelia by Natalie Merchant brings up some painful stuff from my past. I think I'm going to go for a certain catharsis with Linkin Park's Living Things. Maybe that will help.
Still blah
Came home, slept, and now I'm up. Don't worry, I'm on all of my meds. This, too, shall pass. But it has reached an annoying level. I spent most of my day just trying to hold it together so I didn't cry or snap at anyone. The social niceties are a little harder to navigate, but I managed. I have a social event Thursday and I hope I'm feeling better then. The drive across town in rush-hour traffic and back almost got me. Spending a little time with friends helped, especially the Big Bang Theory clip with Sheldon and Amy having Dungeons & Dragons sex (I am, or used to be much like Amy, although she is smarter). I'm finding I'm feeling both needy and standoffish at the same time, so I didn't stay too late. This should resolve soon; it's partly hormonal. I know that. And it's not the kind of lingering, heavy depression I've seen in others. Mine is cyclical; it will tip the other way eventually, or if I'm lucky, just back to balanced. Usually that's the case. Welcome to bipolar disorder II.
Saturday, June 08, 2013
That's a little better
Listening to Ed Sheeran's 'Lego House'
I've eaten, I'm boiling eggs, I've gotten the trash and recyclables together to take out. I feel like I've got a groove. Yay.
Things I meant to do today but didn't get out of bed for
- Sign my lease and return it to the leasing office
- Go to the Bluegrass Farmer's Market
- Go to the library
- Go shopping for a little machine that plugs into the car for cleaning upholstery (good for a beige car interior)
- Take the trash and recyclables out
- Do laundry
- Go to the pool at the complex or the YMCA
- Watch 'Grimm'
- Watch 'Doctor Who'
So it's 6 pm
I did not mean to drop off the face of the planet like that
Since Thursday evening, I've been trying to stay on track. I've taken my Lantus like I was supposed to do, starting Thursday evening. My blood sugar on Friday morning, when it was so hard to wake up, was 357. Then it turned out I only had enough Novolog for part of my breakfast dose with me. I went by the house after work, got it, but didn't take it at dinner, forgot and took it later. When I tested about an hour after eating, my glucose was 407. No wonder I could barely function mentally. I came on home after working on some character sheets, texted with Brandon a bit, and went on to bed, after taking my Lantus correctly. This morning, thankfully, it was 230--still high, but back to my 'norm' rather than what it was doing. It stayed at that before lunch, too. After talking this morning on the phone with the friend who ranted a bit, I've decided it's time to go to a proper endocrinologist. While I like my family doctor, I don't really think I'm getting the care I need. If I can get to where I feel good, both physically and mentally, about controlling my diabetes, then I'll be less likely to self-destruct.
So there's my confession. I know it was stupid and self-harming. 'I'm tired of feeling bad so I will do nothing and feel worse' doesn't make much sense, I know. But this is part of dealing with diabetes and I'm putting this up there because maybe a medical person, caregiver, or fellow patient will read it and understand that there's an emotional toll to it as well as the physical. In the meantime, I'm back on track.
Thursday, June 06, 2013
*Yawn*
Wednesday, June 05, 2013
One nice thing
Tuesday, June 04, 2013
Discovered
I did get my dress for my friends' vow renewal yesterday and it fits and looks fairly nice on me. It was really low cut, though, so I bought a black lacy camisole for $6 at Gabriel Brothers to put under it, and I think that helped, as you can see in the picture.
Today I did some running around after work, spent some time with YKWIA (who chastised me rightly on one count and who talked me out of adopting a cat for now), and now I'm going to try to work on the game notes for awhile. Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I'll try to get back on schedule. :)
Sunday, June 02, 2013
What a long and prolific life
Jack Vance, prolific author of science fiction, mystery and epic fantasy, died Sunday at 96, his son John told the Associated Press. He had written more than 60 books during his long life.I bought Jack Vance's Tales of the Dying Earth at the suggestion of YKWIA, who thought I would like them a great deal, but haven't read them yet. I assumed that Vance, like many classic science fiction/fantasy writers, had already died. So I was surprised to see his name in the obituaries in our paper today. I will definitely move his stories to the top of my reading list.
Vance, whose real name was John Holbrook, also published under the names John Holbrook Vance, Alan Wade, Peter Held, John van See and Jay Kavanse, and he wrote three Ellery Queen novels. His best-known series, "The Dying Earth," was set in a future in which the sun is slowly dying out, and a world where technology and the supernatural exist side-by-side.
Nice day to sleep in
Well, I guess I'd better go. I'll make a stop at the store and get there about 10:30. Hope your weekend is going well.
Saturday, June 01, 2013
Isn't transliteration fun?
The national spelling bee spelled it wrong.I love Yiddish. It's a complex language akin to German spelled with Hebrew letters which is very useful for expressing things in one word that take far more in English.
Or so say mavens of Yiddish about the winning word, knaidel, in the widely televised Scripps National Spelling Bee on Thursday night. Knaidel is the matzo ball or dumpling that Jewish cooks put in chicken soup.
But somebody may have farblondjet, or gone astray, the Yiddish experts say.
The preferred spelling has historically been kneydl, according to transliterated Yiddish orthography decided upon by linguists at the YIVO Institute for Jewish Research, the organization based in Manhattan recognized by many Yiddish speakers as the authority on all things Yiddish.
The spelling contest, however, relies not on YIVO linguists but on Webster’s Third New International Dictionary, and that is what contestants cram with, said a bee spokesman, Chris Kemper. Officials at Merriam-Webster, the dictionary’s publisher, defended their choice of spelling as the most common variant of the word from a language that, problematically, is written in the Hebrew, not Roman, alphabet.
“Bubbes in Boca Raton are using the word knaidel when they mail in their recipes to The St. Petersburg Times,” said Kory Stamper, an associate editor at Merriam-Webster in Springfield, Mass. The dictionary itself says the English word is based on the Yiddish word for dumpling: “kneydel, from Middle High German knödel.”
Four hours and at least two downpours and a thunderstorm later...
The $2.7 Trillion Medical Bill: Colonoscopies Explain Why U.S. Leads the World in Health Expenditures
Deirdre Yapalater’s recent colonoscopy at a surgical center near her home here on Long Island went smoothly: she was whisked from pre-op to an operating room where a gastroenterologist, assisted by an anesthesiologist and a nurse, performed the routine cancer screening procedure in less than an hour. The test, which found nothing worrisome, racked up what is likely her most expensive medical bill of the year: $6,385.My biggest worry regarding the planned end to my job in two years isn't actually other costs; I'll get a severance and unemployment, and that will help some. It's the fact that I'll lose my health insurance that worries me the most.
That is fairly typical: in Keene, N.H., Matt Meyer’s colonoscopy was billed at $7,563.56. Maggie Christ of Chappaqua, N.Y., received $9,142.84 in bills for the procedure. In Durham, N.C., the charges for Curtiss Devereux came to $19,438, which included a polyp removal. While their insurers negotiated down the price, the final tab for each test was more than $3,500.
“Could that be right?” said Ms. Yapalater, stunned by charges on the statement on her dining room table. Although her insurer covered the procedure and she paid nothing, her health care costs still bite: Her premium payments jumped 10 percent last year, and rising co-payments and deductibles are straining the finances of her middle-class family, with its mission-style house in the suburbs and two S.U.V.’s parked outside. “You keep thinking it’s free,” she said. “We call it free, but of course it’s not.”
In many other developed countries, a basic colonoscopy costs just a few hundred dollars and certainly well under $1,000. That chasm in price helps explain why the United States is far and away the world leader in medical spending, even though numerous studies have concluded that Americans do not get better care.
I'd heard the rumours but the confirmation makes me sad :(
The BBC is today announcing that Matt Smith is to leave Doctor Who after four incredible years on the hit BBC One show. Matt first stepped into the TARDIS in 2010 and will leave the role at the end of this year after starring in the unmissable 50th Anniversary in November and regenerating in the Christmas special. During his time as the Doctor, Matt has reached over 30 million unique UK viewers and his incarnation has seen the show go truly global. He was also the first actor to be nominated for a BAFTA in the role.Still, it's not quite over yet...
Matt's spectacular exit is yet to be revealed and will be kept tightly under wraps. He will return to BBC One screens in the unmissable 50th anniversary episode on Saturday 23rd November 2013 - TUNE IN!He'll also be in a Christmas special in which he will regenerate into yet another Doctor. I must admit, I loved Matt Smith from the get-go. I'm sorry to see him leave.
Thinking of taking a nap
There were two unfortunate things that happened today. The first is that I developed a fever blister, something that happens occasionally and which annoys me to no end. I used to get them right before school pictures. But I have a prescription cream with an antiviral medicine that I hope is still good and will help. The second is that I killed a bird with my car. It was a robin who tried to land on the roadway right in front of my car, swooping in rather fast. I couldn't stop in time, felt the impact, and it happened so fast I wasn't able to avoid it. It's like the poor thing committed suicide by car. But I do feel rather bad about it.
Otherwise it's been a good day. I found out we won't be playing the Cthulhu game tomorrow because Brenda had to cancel, so instead we're going to work on some character sheets and do some upgrading to my characters, something she did while I was off cleaning the apartment. I really should go ahead and do the last game notes tonight, but I think I will lie down for just a bit.