Sunday, October 13, 2019
Wednesday, October 09, 2019
Monday, October 07, 2019
I am Southern, which means I tend to bury anger and try not to show my emotions. As a result, things sometimes boil over.
I am very proud that I kept it together going through Kroger's five-deep lines for my one item today because while I was justified at being angry, it wasn't anything that had to do with the place or people I was dealing with, and I really just wanted to scream at somebody...anybody.
So what got me so riled? I went to the pharmacy Saturday because I was almost out of my insulin and they told me that the endocrinologist's office had sent back a denial for a refill request they'd made, saying I never had been on the medication, even though I have been on long-acting insulin for years, mostly through this office. I had a little left of my pen, albeit less than I estimated, so I was calm and said I would call the doctor's office on Monday, which I did. I spoke to someone and the doctor is out this week, as is her nurse. She said she would route it to another nurse and they would call me back, but I didn't get any sort of phone call. At 2:30 I called the pharmacy to see if they'd heard anything. I took my last dose this morning (only because I skipped last night, otherwise I'd have had none today), and they told me that they'd sent over another request and it, too, had been denied. They suggested I ask my PCP, so I called and spoke with his nurse, gave her the dosage (he'd prescribed the same dosage years ago, so it's not like he wasn't aware of the condition or anything), and she said there shouldn't be any problem. I left work at 5 and called the pharmacy to see if the medicine was there, and they hadn't heard anything from his office, so I went home (stopping at the aforementioned Kroger), as there wasn't much point in going and the pharmacy was going to close at 6 pm.
After I got home and explained things to my roommate, the pharmacy called and said the prescription had finally come through as an e-script about 5 minutes to 6 and they didn't have it in stock but would order it and it would be in tomorrow afternoon. So on the one hand, I will have it tomorrow after work, but on the other hand, I'm going to miss three doses total.
I really want to know why my endo's office keeps denying the request as I have been on that medicine for years, with them having a prescription that lasted all the way through last month. I see the doctor in three weeks and I am definitely going to discuss it with her. Also, while I'm glad my PCP apparently came through, waiting till the end of the day, when I'd specifically said I was out of the medicine was not the best, especially as they know my pharmacy is a small, independent outfit which closes early. Finally, while I love my pharmacy, I'm irked that 1) the original denial was 9/10/19--almost a month ago--and they didn't say anything while I still had pens left and if they had, I could have taken care of this weeks ago. 2) They knew I was going to call today yet didn't put in an order for the insulin until they had the prescription, rather than putting it in when I came in on Saturday.
So anyway, I'm feeling better now that I know I can get it tomorrow, but I don't like this cluster of circumstances that is mucking with my health. If it were something like a cholesterol pill, that's one thing. This is insulin we're talking about here.
Okay, thanks for letting me vent!
Saturday, October 05, 2019
Today I did many things but I did not go to the YMCA and do exercises in the pool like I meant to. I haven't given up, I just had a lot to do today. But I did have some time to myself and some relaxation time, as well as game notes and laundry and errands.
I went to the pharmacy today to get my roommate some medicine and see if they had my Lantus, as I started on my last pen of the pack. Turns out they'd sent a request to my doctor's office for a refill and it had been denied. The reason? They said they had never prescribed it.
Now, I have been on Lantus for a couple of years, Basaglar before that for a short time when it was on my insurance's formulary, and years of Lantus prior to that, including quite some time of it from this office, continuously up till this past month. So obviously there has been a mistake. I'll have to call them on Monday. I'm hoping I have enough to last me through Monday so we can get it taken care of, a pen only lasts a few days--I get 10 per refill, and they last about 3 days each.
On Habitica, the task/productivity 'game' I play, there was a reading challenge I took up to read a book called The Halloween Tree by Ray Bradbury. Now I like Ray Bradbury, and it's actually a children's book, so I thought it would be good to read some fast-moving fiction. It's been such a struggle to read fiction (even non-fiction has its challenges), for several reasons. For one thing, I think being on the Internet has made my attention span that of a gnat. I've also apparently been a little off in how I use my bifocals, and it's hard for me to find a nice comfy place to read--I can't read in bed easily, and the comfy chairs are in the study (where my friend is often watching streaming stuff) or in his room. Reading in bed requires lots of pillows, a folding lap desk, and a study pillow with a neck bolster. I can read at the kitchen and study tables, when it is quiet, but the chairs are wooden and really need cushions after a while. Still, I managed to read the whole book in a very short time, maybe an hour or an hour and a half (it's 145 pages long). I enjoyed it--I knew all the various cultural ties to the practices of Halloween, but that was fine. And I'd figured out what happened to one of the characters. I guess the only real thing I had a bit of an issue with it--not a lot, just a bit, were that there were no girls at all in the characters, and little to no character description or development, really. But it is a product of 1972, and while Bradbury's writing deviates poetically from standard writing styles, he shares a common thread you find particularly in male writers of the time, and especially in science fiction writers, somewhat tilted towards action and away from characterization. (Women, by contrast, tend to over-describe and have a lot of emoting going without driving the action forward at all)--a good writer balances both. Still, his description of the settings and experiences are very good, and this story actually needs somewhat blank characters, as they represent certain timeframes of history in their costumes and with the exception of the one character from whose perspective the story is told, there's no real personality among the children, and I guess there really doesn't need to be. Anyway, I did enjoy the story, and it was a little chilling there at the end, so suitably Halloweenesque.
Later, we ate dinner from Subway with a friend, who had a couple of Pierce Brosnan 007 movies on, and then we returned home and I took up finishing the laundry. I've done my clothes and I'm working on my friend's bedding right now. I'm going to do mine tomorrow.
Tomorrow I think I'll try to get up early. I was supposed to do a couple of shelves, pulling off the books and dusting them. I didn't, but I can today. I did do the game notes, which were more timely. If I could get that and my normal Sunday pre-game chores are done really early, I might still be able to go to the Y and do some exercises in the pool and work out in general for maybe an hour, total. Then Monday I can go back for the low-impact pool class that I took this past week. I did really well with everything (and have been in much less pain and been able to move and bend better as a result) except this thing where you put the foam dumbbells under your knees and then balance above them. I need something to hold on and even so couldn't do it. The instructor suggested getting a lighter pair of dumbbells (I had the heavy ones) next time. People were really nice and non-judgmental, though, and I enjoyed it. The instructor was very good. We ended with a mindfulness exercise. So it starts out easy, gets the heart pumping, puts you through all sorts of movement, but it isn't extremely intense--just right for my level of conditioning.
I also need to run by the library while they're open and pick up a book on hold on the zero-waste home--I've been on the list for a while. It must have been there when I picked up The Halloween Tree earlier, but I didn't realise it was in, so I didn't look. I also checked out CDs by Sam Smith and Rush.
Okay, I'm going to get ready for bed. The laundry's still in the dryer, but at least I'll have my teeth brushed, etc. Hope you're having a good weekend.
Sunday, September 29, 2019
He was shot from behind at a routine traffic stop. No motive is known yet, but a suspect is in custody, but he had permission to wear his turban and beard on duty, so one does wonder whether it was directed towards him as a peace officer or him as a Sikh. There are lots of people out there who are anti-Muslim who see the turban and misidentify Sikhs as Muslim, because let's face it, hate is partly based on ignorance and stupidity.
The Princeton professor reminds me a lot of YKWIA. It's set here in Kentucky, and one of its creators is rooted here in Kentucky.
Saturday, September 28, 2019
Shower. Take medicine. Caffeinate. Do two loads of laundry. Go to the optician. Go to the Rusty Scabbard [a local gaming store that's been around for ages]. Go pick up a couple of books on hold at the library. Go to the YMCA and work out and then hit the warm water pool during open swim. Do the game notes. Dust some bookshelves. Relax.
Thursday, September 26, 2019
I was sharing things from my newsfeed on Facebook and apparently, I got share-silly because a pop-up window came up asking me if I was a robot; I had to check the box to continue. I need to be doing more sharing on this page; I've hardly written anything all summer. I'm going to take the 'habit' I have on my phone on Habitica (the app that's a productivity one but with avatars and roleplaying game trappings that I've used for years now) and make it a daily, meaning I'll be more likely to think to write.
There are several applications I'm using right now that I'm finding useful for my health, beyond the one that comes with my activity tracker or something like Samsung Health or Google Fit. I highly recommend them:
Daylio -- This is a mood tracker that I've used now for over 1100 days (I know, I have entries for that many). Given that I have Bipolar Disorder II, it's been really helpful in seeing how my mood varies. I'm generally in the good category, so that's nice to see. It allows you to track activities as well that might contribute to the mood.
PainScale -- This app allows you to track where and how intense your pain is, as well as a journal, keep track of treatments, triggers, and you can also track food to see if what you're eating is contributing. It keeps track of the weather and activity factors as well.
Ate -- This one is in beta. It's a visual food diary that has you take a picture of your meal and then answer a few questions that have to do with mindfulness--why did you eat, who did you eat with, where did you eat, etc., and rather than keeping track of nutrients and calories, it asks were you 'on path' or 'off path'. It also calculates the time between eating. So instead of working with minutiae, you're getting to the reasons why you eat and how mindfully. I mentioned it to my therapist, actually, as in addition to cognitive-behavioural therapy she includes mindfulness. I'm seeing her about every three or four weeks.
Okay, I think I will try to go to sleep, maybe listen to some soothing music. I've been listening to the collaborative album Ed Sheeran put out all day, and I've now got 'South of the Border' stuck in my head. I like it, don't get me wrong, but it's too damn catchy.
Have a good night.
Sunday, September 22, 2019
It has different modes including cycling through colours, an evening mode where it shuts off after a certain time, one that changes colour to do with the humidity and temperature, and then a guided breathing one. But most importantly, a little before the sound alarm goes off, the light gradually brightens to bright white when it's time to wake up.
Anyway, I talked it over with my therapist and I decided to join the YMCA last weekend. I was able to get 10% off and no joining fee through work, with everything prorated for September. I tried to go to the pool last Monday, actually, (only Beaumont YMCA has a warm water pool like the hospital), but the heater was out. They got it fixed later in the week, though, so yesterday I went and spent some time doing my exercises. It was during an open swim, so there were a couple of families with small children in it, but I did fine, at least until they were playing with a ball, but I still managed to get all my walking in, most of my leg exercises (I forgot a couple), but did forget to do my arm ones. I'll do better next time.
On Monday [tomorrow], however, there is a class that I think I'll try to go to that's a basic workout in the pool. Tuesday I have my first real session of cognitive-behavioural therapy for fibromyalgia. Wednesday I'm going to try to go to the Y again for open swim and do my exercises, and then again on Saturday. I hope to make that a standard thing.
Today I'd thought about going because we weren't playing the game, but I'm having a slight reaction to a shingles vaccine [my second dose], where my arm hurts a bit and my joints and muscles are aching a little. So I didn't quite feel like getting into the pool today.
Anyway, that's what's going on these days with me. I thought I'd actually sit down and blog for a bit.
Saturday, September 07, 2019
But before we got this news, I took YKWIA out for a birthday Indian buffet at Masala, and it was wonderful. They even had gulab jamun, which I adore, this time! We also did some errands.
They're having a tailgating thing at work today (it's near the UK stadium, so it seemed a good opportunity to get my co-workers together), and I was thinking of going, am actually wearing the shirt they'd bought for us, but between the news and the fact that I'm stuffed with Indian food to the point of near torpor, I decided not to go.
I've done my shelf dusting for the day. I have some laundry to do and the game notes. Also, I need to take things to the storage unit and put them in there, put away my laundry from last week, make my bed, and generally straighten up my room.
Tonight we're planning on watching Cats, which I have out from the library. I've never seen the musical.
But before I do all that, I really want to take about a 45-minute nap. So I'll stop here. Perhaps I'll write later, though.
Monday, August 26, 2019
That I've been on a planned hiatus, but that wouldn't be true. I've mostly been accessing the Internet via my phone lately, and it is a bit of a pain to blog anything of any length with autocorrect, etc.
So here's a bit of a resolution here, a bit past the middle of the year, to log into the laptop and actually write.
Of course, I'm writing on the phone right now. And it's almost 1 am, so I should put it down and sleep, as this is the first week of school at university and I'll need to arrive early to deal with parking at UK.
So for now, good night.