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I am 8 lbs. from weighing 300. I don't want to live like that and I don't want to die, either. I really need to make changes in my life, more than just eating healthy. I need to get moving, even though my knees and feet hurt. I need to want to lose weight, completely, rather than hide behind the fat and keep the world at bay.

It has to change. I have to change--the sooner I start, the better.