Have you ever had a night

where you felt not only like a disappointment to others, but to yourself? I realise that I really don't like the way my life is going--too pathetic, not assertive enough, etc. I understand all of these things logically every day, but tonight the emotional component really hit me hard. Maybe that means I'm ready for change? I think it was more than depression or self-pity happening, but rather looking hard at myself and the many facets of my life and finding it wanting.