I got home from my friends' house about four-something and took a nap, and have been up and down since then just sort of chilling out. I should have done some things around the house, like take down the tree, and I'll try to do that in the next couple of days, but it was nice just to spend some time thinking and relaxing for awhile.
My counselor says that introverts process things internally, meaning by thinking, whereas extroverts process externally, mainly through talking things out. I'm definitely an introvert, so it's nice to sort of decompress and think about how things are going in my life, and what I want to do with it next.
I still haven't heard more about the position I had the phone interview for, but I haven't given up hope on that. It's a university position and those soemtimes take awhile to go through the various steps. I do hope I hear from them soon. Obviously, I'd really like to get an in-person interview, but however it works out, I'm happy for the opportunity.
I paid my rent yesterday, the second time in two paydays in a row, and so the next couple of weeks are going to be very tough financially. I need to make some calls and arrangements tomorrow sometime. I still don't have Internet at home, which means I have no working home phone (it is Vonage, and so it works over the Internet). I need to call and cancel that or at least put off the next month or so until I can get it working again I also need to see about delaying my cell phone payment, which I hate to do, but I simply have about $15 to last me almost two weeks, and there isn't money for anything beyond gas and maybe a little food. I bought flour today so I can make my own bread. I have a little peanut butter and jam in the house, some oatmeal, tuna, that sort of thing, but it's not going to last. I should get a reimbursement of banking fees on the 17th for $10, and of course, somewhere that reimburseemnt for the trip in Novemmber is in process, which at least could get me some groceries.
I was doing so well for awhile there, several years, in fact, but I've just gotten myself in a difficult position what with having to finance dental work and not having money from the settlement any more. A lot of that is my fault--I let a former friend, or someone I thought was a friend, borrow quite a bit of money because he was basically in dire straits and had a family to worry about, and he not only didn't pay me back, he blamed me if I even brought it up and treated me like crap. So obvioulsy, he is an ex-friend, a user who really took advantage of me when I was hit by the car and was recovering from it, and then had some money for the first time in, well, ever, really. Now he's probably much more stable, as he has disability now and his wife has a better job and degree, but I'll no doubt never see that money ever again. Word of wisdom: if a person's family won't help them from getting evicted or to get back in state after getting stranded hundreds of miles away, there's probably a reason, and it is more likely that they've used up all their goodwill in the past rather than the fact that they're inexplicably mean and grinchy. Oh, well, Brandon will eventually reap the rewards of his actions. I know karma doesn't really work like most Americans talk about it doing, but I do believe ther will be justice for people who go from person to person using them up like a parasite. I just didn't want to see his family out on the street, especially during the holidays, and also felt that the only reason he would like me was if I helped him out. That may have been true in his case, but you can't really buy love and friendship. My true friends have demonstrated that to me on a daily basis. Any way, I'm going to chock this up to a very expensive learning experience, and while I do believe in paying things forward, one should only do that if you can afford it and it it's for a good cause, not for emotional rasons.
Well, it's almost 11 pm. I've taking my nightly meds, brushed and flossed my teeth, put all my daily accomplishments into the Habitica application (I'm almost level 15), and I think it's time to go to bed I'm going to try to get up early, maybe do some exercising tomorrow morning befor work. It's cold outside (finally), we even had some snow today, so it's nice that the apartment complex has a gym now. I really haven't used it yet this year, and I should. Good night!
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