Really?

Okay, now my perpetual affirmation calendar just is playing with me. But anyway, done! 😂

I give up

It does no good to try to keep a relationship going if there is no love actually involved, or if it is one-sided at best. I have spent my entire life trying to make it different, to no avail. It won't happen, no matter how much I want it. So I'm going to let it all go and stop trying to make something out of nothing. I'm not going to waste any more time on this, no matter how it hurts.

It's amazing

how much better you can feel after a warm shower and a chance to relax and calm down. I feel better. Still a bit rushed, and I don't know if I'll get to go to the book sale or not today, although it is open the rest of the week for a couple of hours after I'm off work (though you're not required to be a member on those days). I'm going to get what I can get done and go with that, and try to let go of any other expectations for the day.